MERRY CHRISTMAS

oww...i passed the christmas eve uniquely tis year...

it could considered as my 1st time...

don misunderstand ya...nt 失身夜..haha

guess wat???

i went 2 my fren's church during tis christmas eve...

i tot i can't go originally...coz i knew tat my mum dislike me go 2 church...

tat day i hv been invited 2 few events too...

confused whether want 2 attend which 1...

or just accompany my mum at home...

finally i decided 2 go 2 church as my mum allow me 2 go there...

the events quite enjoyable...

i was very excited when i gt a bear bear...haha...

they r very friendly....

there was a lot of interesting performances too...

i was shocked n surprised when my fren sang very well wif guitar on the stage...

he was very talented...

i can't imagine tat...haha

glad 2 noe tat huh...

i just can said tat church is a very peaceful place...

those christians was quite active n friendly...

there hv a lot of activities...

thx 2 lok wui who invited me 2 attend it...

yea...my bear...thx 2 tat HUI HUI...a funny boy^^

both of us also hv 1...

the next day during christmas...i hang out wif frens...

we watched TRON....

owwwhh!!!it was a best movie!!!

i like it very much!!!

it was very cool n amazing...i like the races...

so cool huh....

i cried at the end when his father sacrifices himself 2 save his son....

so touching n great....!!!

after tat we went 2 dolphin at night...

we played cards at there...

had fun wif them...quite excited..haha

frens...must hv next time ya~XD

20/12-SMKCP PROM NIGHT

my prom look^^

ohyaa...i had dyed my hair...

hmm....quite busy recently...

now oni free 2 post it...

actually it was not an masqurade night...

coz we all didn't wear the mask==

in fact...most of us quite bored at there...

coz not all of us involved in the games...

so we just sitting there n watched...

anyway...i was enjoyed in the dancing part...

when sista said tat our singing performance had cancelled becoz of the games had taken too long time...so no time 4 us 2 sing...i was quite moody...

altot i knew i will very nervous when i sing in front of them...

but i had practiced 4 a long time

so tat time i was very down n upset...

however...i just show my happy face...

just 4got about it n dance until crazy...xD

at last...when the prom was going 2 end...

jia yee told us tat we can sing...==

tat time i was not ready yet...coz i tot it had cancelled ad...

i was wondering wanna sing anot...

afraid tat i can't sing well coz i was shouting be4 tat...

i felt quite nervous when we were performing...

however...we had successfully finished our performance...

ohyaa...i like their dancing performance too!!!

it was very amazing n cool!!!

especially Mei Kei...she danced very well...

i prefer the part she dance...

my other frens not bad too...^^

btw....TQ VERY MUCH

to all the organizers, planners n others who helped 2 hold this event n decorated the ballroom...

here are some of the photos...

CHEERSS guys...!!!xD

leng lui pei yee...^^

my lovely sista...

handsome guys here..XD

my dear sista...

the PROM KING!!!!congratzz!!!^^

TO U....WHO I HATE THE MOST

本来我已不想提到关于你们的事。。

一点都不想看你的部落。。

不过有人问我是不是原谅了你。。说你在部落里好像是在写着我。。

所以我去看了。。

很不幸地。。我一点都没原谅过你。。

请你别误会。。别妄想

我不懂什么事令你产生这种错觉。。。

我说过不原谅。。就是不会原谅！！

对。。你们觉得我小气也好。。什么都好。。

我并不在乎。。

事情发生后到现在。。。

你们连一句对不起都没有。。。

还能很开心地在一起。。

完全没有理我的感受。。。给我带来了那么深的伤害。。

我还能微笑地对着你们。。装着没事吗？？

对不起。。我做不到！！

因为我是人。。

我不会做戏。。也讨厌双面人。。

我就是我！！！

我不能扮。。我也扮不到。。

请问你有哪一点值得我原谅的呢??!!!!

我曾经的确努力着学习宽恕。。

可是如果我原谅了你们。。就等于伤害了自己。。

不知为何我看了你那样写。。我流泪了。。

应该是令我想起了你们对我所做过的一切。。

还有。。。你没有资格评定我现在是快乐的。。

我快不快乐。。只有我自己知道。。。

表面上的我是很快乐。。因为我不想让身边的人担心我。。

但是我心里有多痛。。你知道吗？？！！

我真的很想很想快点完全忘记你们。。

大家各不相干！！

如果可以给我选择。。我宁愿从来没认识过你们！！

这样我现在的生活或许可以好过一点。。

所以请你从此别提到我。。

我也不想提起你。。

还有不要说你在乎我。。我不会感激你的。。

你这样对我。。还敢说那些话？？

只会令我感到可笑。。

不要来看我的部落。。。不要来干涉我的生活。。。

在我的记忆以及生命里消失。。。

别再让我看到你们！！！

也别以为我可以那么轻易就原谅你们。。

除非我失忆了！！

我的容忍度是有限的。。请别再点起我的火了！！！

我只会当你们是我最讨厌的人！！！

THE LAST DAY...

FINALLY COMES 2 AN END!!!!!

wOOhHOO!!!!HOoraYY!!

finally SPM IS FINISHED!!!

CHHeerssSS!!!!clap~clap!!!

now is the time 4 me to enjoy,rest,relax,play n play!!!!

wahhahaa!!!

i'm waiting 4 tis for a long long time!!!

finally...is the end!!!!

"IS THE END OF MY SPM"

"IS THE END OF MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE"

thx 2 all who encouraged me~

especially my family members~

they seems like more nervous than me...

they always asked me how was my exam going on...

n said " u sure can de la..."==

anyway...everything ad passed since tis afternoon..1pm..^^

I'M FREEDOM NOW!!!!

finally i could release my breath~

now i just wished tat i reli can get a perfect result...

don let them disappointed...PLS!!!

coz they reli put a lot of confidence wif me...

btw...i ad tried my best!!!

GOD BLESS ME!!!

umm...so far i hv ad marked all my paper 1...

i was quite satisfied wif it...except SEJ...==

paper 2...ntg 2 say...

for now...

i 'm waiting for prom night,genting,christmas n new year!!!

i hope we can hold a mini trip 2 somewhere else...

but...i think it is failed 2 do so...

coz don hv any planner....

me????felt troublesome n tired when plan something...

coz i have ad experienced those trouble==

n i think wont hv much ppl go too...rite??><

2day is the last day of school in SMK CP

is the last day we wear school uniform..

gonna miss all my schoolmates n teachers...

GOODBYE 2 SMK CP!!!!

i will keep all the memories wif u guys...

muacckkkZZXxx!!!

wish u all the best ya~

hope 2 see u guys soon!!!!

SO SICK!!!

haizz.....having flu seriously since tis morning

keep on sneezing now!!!

tired 2 study...bt i hv 2 do so...

everytime when exam is coming nearer...

i sure having many types of illness..

such as stomach pain,flu,gastric,headache n manymore...

goshh!!!m i too stressful??

tis time hv 2 get rid of SPM...i'm wondering hw seriously i was...

i reli hope tat i could stay healthy until the end of exam...

god bless me!!!

hate myself tat i'm always so weak!!!

i'm gonna mad now!!!

i still hv 2 face alot of problems in my life...

SPM just left more 12 days from now!!!

i felt very stressful n suffering...

many teachers gave a lot of stress n pressure 2 me...

especially PN. Arsyikin(my bm teacher)

she keep on requested me 2 get A+ for BM....

haizz....i tink i cant do it...

coz in fact my BM nt very good at all...

she made me very stressful...><

n also included BC n ACCOUNT's teachers...

they lay stress on me...

i'm very afraid tat i might let them disappointed

i don hope so....

anyway...thx 2 all my teachers very much!!!

many ppl tot tat i'm a genius or very clever...

seriously....i'm not....

in fact i'm nt as perfect as they think...

i'm also hv my own weakness...

i just forced myself to study hard n do my best in all my exams...

I HATE TO EXAM TOO!!!!

if i don study...i might same wif others too...

to all my frens, teachers,n family members....

pls don tink tat i'm very great...

becoz of others view on me...it made me more stressful...

i reli don like it....

i juz want 2 become a normal student n a normal girl...

it's enough for me if i could make myself satisfied....

u guys made me hard 2 breath sometimes....

actually i just targeted 8A's for SPM

coz my BC n ADD MATHS r damn poor...

btw....i will try my best!!!

of coz i hope 2 get 10A's+...dreaming??haha

hope my dream will come true when i get my result next year....

hate 2 go skul when i saw some1!!!

i wont forgive any ppl who betrayed me!!!!

watever u guys said anything about me...i don care!!!

i'm the sufferer!!!

but i still hv 2 bear 1 more month...

pls disappear in my life forever!!!

GET OUT OF MY LIFE!!!

I DON HV A FREN SUCH LIKE U!!!

no matter wat happen now...

i always remind myself I HV 2 BE STRONG!!!

i cant let anything affects my life....

ermmm....i might less update my blog until the end of SPM...

GOOD LUCK 2 ALL MY FRENS...

see ya~

23 days!!!!

owhhh!!!today is the end of oct...

SPM just left more 23 days to go!!

honestly....i'm quite scared n afraid now...

umm.... i'm quite satisfied wif my trial result...

i gt 9A's & 1C

but some of the subjects i was depends on the tips==

isn't my spm result is tat gud???i hope so...

haizz....i get C for my add maths....

i was quite disappointed when i knew tat...

in fact...i targeted B for my add maths...

i just realized tat my teacher had count less marks 4 me...

but it's too late...

coz the result ad come out.....==

the most worried result 4 my spm is BC & ADD maths....

i hope i could get rid of it!!

especially ADD MATHS!!!

it spoiled my result!!

nowadays i was keep on doing add maths questions

i'm still very weak of tat....

i hope can get gud result in my spm...PLSS!!!

i knew many of my frens were worried about me...

i'm fine now...

i will tried my best 2 be stronger n happier...

thx 4 the caring n solicitude....

i will control my tears...

to the guest here...altot i duno hu r u guys...

but i reli appreiate it...

TQ VERY MUCH 2 all my frens!!!

felt sad tat my 2 best frens said tat i'm also wrong...

coz they don't understand me....

haizz....nvm....i didn't blame them....

just a bit upset...

actually hu can tell me wat is frens mean??

frens is to exploit??lie??betray??

i was very scared now....

scared 2 be frens wif others....

in fact...hv how many true frens in my life??

i reli duno......

ohya....,

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!!

to all my frens...

SPM JUST AROUND THE CORNER!!!

pls study hard ya~

don play play ad...xD

good luck & gambateh!!!!

+U+U!!!!^^

BITCH!!!!!!!

我是全世界最笨最傻最蠢的人！！！

我的心非常痛。。。

痛得难以呼吸。。。就快要窒息了！！

现在的我。。好辛苦！！好痛苦！！

好不容易我慢慢地接受了我们分手的事实。。

我的心情慢慢平复着。。

可是现在。。。。

我还要承受更大的打击！！

我实在接受不到他是这种人！！

他是我遇过最臭最贱的男人！！

我不敢相信这是他！！！

如果不是我亲眼看到。。

我真的不肯相信！！

看到我这样。。你还好意思笑着问我怎么了!!

你还能若无其事！！你做戏真的一流！！

我难以接受一个跟我曾经在一起的人。。在我身边的人

是一个这样的臭男人！！！

我竟然被他们骗了！！！

我真的很笨！！！

无可否认。。我一直都有怀疑过他们。。

可是我告诉我自己。。情侣之间最重要的就是信任

所以我相信他。。我不怀疑。。

我以为是我想太多了。。。

可是现在我怀疑的真的发生在我眼前了！！！

我很难才接受他不爱我的事实。。

我只好默默地爱着他。。

分手当天。。。

我问他是不是喜欢了另外一个。。他说不是

他跟我说。。他不想谈恋爱了。。

那时我还很傻地相信他所说的话！！

不管别人跟我说什么。。

我都不相信！！因为我相信他！！！

可是现在我不得不接受这个事实了！！

当初我还以为是我做错了什么。。。

还一直跟他道歉！！

原来错的是他！！

原来还没分手之前。。他们一直都有暧昧的！！

我竟然什么都不懂。。

傻傻地给他们骗了！！！

他所说的都是谎言！！废话！！

他真的令我很失望。。很心痛！！！

为什么我这么多人不选。。偏偏要爱上这个人！！

我一生中做错了最大的选择就是爱上他！！

我好后悔！！但一切都来不及了！！

这世界上还会有好人吗？？

我已不敢相信任何人了！！

没想到我最相信的人竟然会这样对我！！

对于这个世界。。

我觉得好可怕。。好恐怖。。好黑暗。。

还要每天对着那个贱女人。。。我好辛苦！！

我已分不清谁是真。。谁是假了。。

还有谁值得我去相信呢？？

我真的很想狠狠地盖他们！！！

可能这样我的心会舒服点。。。

但我做不到！！不是我怕。。

在这之前。。他是我最爱的人！！

但现在。。他会是我一辈子最憎恨的人！！！

我恨你们一世！！！

我真的不想见到你们！！

请你们离我远远！！！

我真的很想去发泄！！

我的脑海里不断出现他们的影子！！

我真的无法接受！！！

为什么要一次一次地这样伤害我呢？？

看到我这样。。你很开心吧！！！

你们深深地伤害了我！！！！

我真的好辛苦。。就要撑不下去了！！

被一个最爱的人背叛。。。

是多么的难受！！！

我已不懂得怎样再坚强下去了！！！

臭男人和贱女人！！

你们去死吧！！！！

17th's bday celebration

BASKIN ROBBIN'S ICE CREAM CAKE

MY DEAREST FRENS !!!

MANGO CAKE AT NITE

GIANT CAKE TAT I HAD !!!

20.10.2010

it was my 17th's bday....

it was a very unique n special day for me....

oni once in my life...

today i went 2 play bowling....

juz 8 ppl came...==

after tat we went 2 BBQ plaza

all my frens came finally....

my 2 dearest babes gave me a surprise

they came wif a giant cake..xD

but actually i had guess it tat time^^

anyway...thx yarr~

after finished our lunch....

we rushed 2 cinema watched THE CHILD'S EYE....

as the movie ad started....

1st time watched movie together wif 16 frens...hehe

the movie nt bad...but less horror...

it was more on sadness

after movie then we went 2 baskin robbin's

we took a lot of funny photos there...haha

at nite i went 2 SAKAE SUSHI wif my family

i was fulled tat time...

so jus ate less...

anyway...sushi is always my favourites!!!haha

i had a happiest n enjoyable bday ....

i was reli touching n excited!!!

i went out at 11am until 11pm oni back home....

altot i was very tired but happy!!

i had the most bday cake on tis year...xD

thx for all the wishes!!!

tq for the bday presents!!!

tq very much for the celebration!!

THX a lot.....

to all my dearest family members n frens who celebrated bday wif me

i love u all~~

thx for giving me a warm bday...

btw....i was quite disappointed

at last my wish cant come true....==

i was hurt again....

i look happy on my appearance....

but felt very sad inside my heart.....

FINALLY i cried again......

more photos on my facebook....

just click on the link below if u wan 2 see^^

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2082711&id=1052471237&l=b12cd68046

here's the video...haha

17 / 10

2day was little cute zi qi's birthday...

we had gave her a surprised....

but actually she knew a bit about our plan...==

anyway...wish u HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

hope u enjoyed n had a wonderful bday wif us!!!^^

HAPPY ALWAYS ya~

after finished celebrated...

we went 2 pandan lake club played bowling

haizzz.....i think i was the worst player among them....T_T

at nite...i went 2 dinner wif my family....

when the dinner almost end...

i just realized tat they wanna celebrate my bday earlier....

then a marble cheese cake coming infront of me....

haha...i was reli surprised!!!

thx very much!!!!

altot they wouldn't visit my blog here..

but i also hope 2 appreciate all of them!!!

i love u all.......

i was reli happy n excited....

coz i cant believe tat they will do tat...

haha!!!

tis's the marble cheese cake!!